hahahahahahahahaharirayahahahahahahaha.


This year Aidilfitri will be meaningless. How i wish i could take the first week of Raya's Thursday leave. I'm officially sad, seriously sad.

I've a very BIG and HUMONGOUS family island wide. My family and all the rest will be happily visiting relatives and I'll be wasting time working. :( I hate my working life. period!

Anywhoopedoo, I would like to susun sepuluh jari ini, dan mohon maaf seandainya your favourite girl down here, termaki, terkasar bahasa or well, just being my plain self most of the time aquainted. teehee, you guys know me well, what i said, simply came out of my mind, not my heart. And most of the time when i say something hurtful, i realised and I'm utterly sorry.

So SUHAILA,
ALFIAH,
& NURUL.

(mainly you 3lovelovelove since only you guys are noted bout this blog)

maaf banyak2. you know I'm no good, but u know i cant get any better. :P

SELAMS HARS RAYS ya guys.

HEART PAIN. HEART PAIN. HEART PAIN!!!! And I'm burning! tsk.


that's it. fuck you fuckers. fucking fuck of a fucking fuck fuck.


for now I'm contented as it is with friends and my beloved family, so much for all the fcuking talks. you're no better.

Hmm. what happened to all my happy thoughts?

Can't let any COWs (no pun intended, though ... haha) moooooo my day away. le sigh.


side track, i screwed up my BIG INTERVIEW. but that's not something new i guess. corky and dorky is my middle name afterall.

Actually i wanted to blog about yesterday and the day before but, I'm still hopping MAD leii!

FUCK EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU!!!!!!!!


FUCKING A-HOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I'M SERIOUSLY FUMING MAD!!!


just what is wrong with you fuckers? don't mess with the raging fire, or I'll fucking set u ablaze! i don't even giving a flying fuck to any of you bastards. son of a mother fucking COW!

swirl of emotions and mixed feelings.


I think I'm going to be sick. *cough cough*

Maybe time will tell. I guess it's not the time yet for me. I take things tooooo seriously sometimes, that my own actions hurts me real bad. and i take things for granted too, sometimes. such indecisive bitch i am.

Why am i bad at making decisions? If only I can read minds....teehee.

And I'll still be the hesitant one ... or rather.

Hello, Sue, Fie and Nurul. my 3 fellow readers, for now. hahah .. xoxo.

self note: better tell sofian abt my appt. it's now or never.

funny why I'm not feeling hungry at all when i only ate a little bit of those yummy noodle strips (ojalali, ojolali?) yesterday. And I'm not even fasting today. Downed two vitasoy since it was on sale. haha. i should keep that up, minus the vitasoys of cause.

Yesterday was good while it lasted, although I find him a lil irritating (wait, i find most guys irritating, haha). And me, being my irritaing self, or so he says, with I-DON'T-KNOW replies most of the time. buttt i seriously have DON'T KNOW whutttt.


p.s i feel like dumping my phone, for no apparent reason at all.

If my prayers have been answered, or has been, I THANK YOU GOD.

If my answered prayers will be giving me an opportunity of what I've been missing in life, I THANK YOU GOD.

If my answered prayers will be giving me more than life, I THANK YOU GOD.

but if it's just a test, I'll still be thanking you.

You know how it feels like when you have been wanting to let go of something but you're dreading to let it go at the same time too?

Prft, it sucks alright.

Trying to make myself feel better, is like the slurping the last drop of milkshake.

On a different note, damn, Gelare's milkshake's the bomb. Yummmmmm! Thank god they have a branch just two bus stops away and a long lonng lonnnng walk back home, if you're living in the border or Woodlands and Marsiling, you'll know what i mean. ;)


Thank God it's Friday or better know as TGIF!


TGIF!!! hah.

Oh sweet mother mercy of god! THE PAIN is unbearable.

p.s RASHID stinks for the 23546451th time. Have mercy on me nose.

p.p.s grr. sometimes i wish i was never here.

Eh, I was *this* close to cabot-ing from work yesterday. Like tak datang forever. Yes i know! This job is easy peasy, buttt to think of the stress level I've been coping with moronic fucktards, life just can't get any better. My whole entire working life here has been filled with hatred. Don't even start with managing my anger. How could i? When . . . . . . .

haiyah, that is why i wanna have this blog opened up to cetain people, so that the possiblity of me ranting about anyone who's been part of my miserable like, easy. But then again, who am i to decide. You guys get the very best out of me.

>:(

Amazed at how good Zanna's ( a very good and hilarious ex schmate ) memory can be. She knows that I'm a person of my words (sometimes, lol) and whenever anybody makes promises, IT'S A PROMISE. no consolation for that. I'm very grumpy, and I think most of my friends knows that. I guess my anger management is that bad.





Dined with Sue and Fel ( not break fast though, since i was not fasting, haha) yesterday. Had kebab and yummy cheese cake. Ahh...at days like this, when u have the right company, u'd just surrender. I love my friends, be it the old ones or not. Though sometimes . . .





p.s please be more thougtfull lah someone. You're getting on my nerves for like forever.





p.p.s i smell/spot a very dirty cat, sport snix, sports snix!

I think I'm fasting half day today. bah!

I think GOD is really watching us know. GOD can also read minds. Just saying this cuz something extra-ordinary (not really lah) happened to me today! And I'm not kidding! Haha, maybe it's part tech and part natural but I don't know! Know nothing what I'm talking about? Then goood.


Bleargh, I don't know. I thought by starting a new blog, It's like a new kick start or something to my life but nooooo. Motherchucker! Ohh...the wishful thinking!

p.s good for nothing dumbchucks!

p.p.s i am not ranting, am i?

Nenehpoks day on Wed! Can't wait! Hope it'll be as carefree as the good ol times, where our flaws is the ultimate escapade, to our source of entertainment. How i miss US.


p.s F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F F. yes, I've never danced in the rain.

OHH the thoughts! how could i? prft. shutting down for good and for all.

self note : lesson learnt, and i'm baffled. It's a normal human thing to do, but why am i always bad at it? My life is screwed as it is, don't YOU (yes, im stressing on YOU) know it? failure i am, failure i am. :(

Hmmm, too much too say. I don't even know where to start. One thing for sure though, I'm liking the way I am now, and where the hell have you been ?


Time is a bitch fit. What happened to the glorious laid back sleazy June? Heck, It feels like I'm in the mid month. Now 2008 is coming to an end, and i can bid my teeeeenage life goodbye. Not that I'm looking forward to it though.


I'm soooo gonna quit this job. By this year. Prft, i know I've been saying it since forever, but I'm doing it for sure this Dec. My life has been disastrous eversince I'm here. Everything about my working life in this I____ D____ sucks. And yes, I'm looking forward to pure bliss life after my worsest 2 years of life spent here. I don't even have a life to start with. teeheehee.


P.S / Rashid please close your gap. It's hideous.

P.P.S / I'm so hungry.

Went to geylang yesterday with the usual girl and 2 half women. haha. i hate the crowd. but annnnyyywaayyyyy, it was ha ha hilariously spent.